What is in me, to come and seek you God? Why do I come to you, almost every day to you?

Is it to seek Your will? Because Jesus wants us to bring up disciples? Why do I go and read my devotional every day?

I am just trying to comprehend WHY I seek your will.

It is because You game me LIFE. You gave me understanding. You made a way for me to learn how to live life according to your ways. 

I should not live on my own authority. Or understanding. Or reason. For I have tried. I have caused destruction under my own hands, just as people has caused destruction in this world. For You bring LIFE not destruction. You give love, not despair. Though You give and take away, we are in your favor. You strengthen, not weaken. You uplift, not put down... those that are in accord with You.

I seek more of Your will in me and I pray that I recognize Your call, Your instruction, Your words, Your way of handling situations. Amen

David's reflection

What a life David lived. His great reverence in God. I can model myself to him. I need to read more about David to learn how he handled his trials and tribulations. 

The great sufferer. Little David. Disrespected. Dishonored. Great turmoil. Yet he reserved in the strength of God to preserve him.

I went through a great turmoil that is not yet comprehended. I do not know much about him, but, he had his wives taken way and his house burned by the Amalekites. IMAGINE THAT! This happened in a time that the gangs today don't even come close to the amount of turmoil that went on long ago.

Upon reading that David exhausted all of his strength, I too have experienced that. Today, I do not have full range or strength in my arm. It it sore. My back is hurting. I am exhausted. From what? From the pain and suffering of my life, my body has not handled it well.

How do I trust you in my circumstance?

Oh God, how do I trust you in my circumstance. How do I surrender it to You if it keeps going on. How do I live in your presence in my time. I want to avoid the despair, to trust in You that you will judge it accordingly. 

I want no more of it God. Give me wisdom to understand how to deal with damaging situations.

Thank you Lord God for your promises and for being here for me. Amen