Artificial Pain, Prince of the Earth

I feel a heavy burden in me. What am I to do. I have looked to the Lord for His help. I surrendered it. But, it is still there. 

But, I will wait for the Lord to deliver me. Does that mean that I still go through this trial? Do I continue to go through this valley? Because I still feel this burden.

Lord, I know that you will reveal me my answer. So, I will continue to wait for You as I go through this valley.

I only say this because God lifted my burden a while ago, but I have gained a new one. But what does this burden effect? Can I simply 'know' that I have a burden, but would my Lord carry the FULL load for me? Can I, if the Lord allows, to let my feelings not be a cornerstone in me. To let me feelings be beside me and not in me. 

I surrender ALL my thoughts. God will direct my thoughts through the Holy Spirit. He will put words in my mouth at that time. Can I simply be a vessel for Him? To be used by Him? Jesus did. Jesus did the work of God, not under His own authority. But Jesus was born just like us. He did feel pain. Anger. But He used it to benefit the glory of God. He suffered, the same as we do, but even more. Imagine when He went through the valley for 40 days and 40 nights. He SUFFERED on His own and without sin. How did He do it? Who did He rely on? What did He do with His pain?

So, my question is, is it possible to harness the pain- to the effect that it does not succumb us. We need to understand the pain, I think. What do we do with that pain so it does not effect us. I imagined that when a boat gets caught in a storm, that it can do nothing but preserve itself and wait it out. So I am waiting out my pain and suffering, relying on the Lord to carry much of the burden, knowing that this will pass and to know that life does not suck.

Does anybody smell VICTORY? The enemy is set to destroy our relationship with the Lord. Trying to divert our hearts to disgust. If I make it through, I WILL KNOW THAT I CAN RELY ON THE LORD AND THAT THIS PAIN IS JUST ARTIFICIAL! That it is just temporary and it will pass. Can I look the enemy in the eye knowing that, I too, can conquer the Prince of the earth.

We are not of this world and are here only for a short time. 

-Go your ways: behold, I send you forth as lambs among wolves.

^-7To keep me from becoming conceited because of these surpassingly great revelations, there was given me a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me.

-Also I was delivered out of the mouth of the lion. ¹⁸ And the Lord will deliver me from every evil work and preserve me for His heavenly kingdom. To Him be glory forever and ever. Amen!

A new mission possible

I have prayed in the past asking the Lord to expand my territory. But in the past, I had never owned a territory. I spoke that prayer with accordance with the bible, but without understanding.

I have begun a mission, a new beginning. To set forth a mission to spread the gospel to those whom have not accepted Jesus into their lives.

My mission has begun with my household. To set forth the rules that God has commanded us to abide by. 

People go to college to learn, we send children to school. But, one thing that we do not lay down for people, is the Law. The truth. People get influenced by earthly desires. People become more like those that are around them. The majority of people do not live accordingly and go about their own hearts desires. And that said, it is God's plan for us to live according to His ways, not ours.

I have had my daughter Grace baptized in a dedication that, I, as a parent pledged to raise up Grace in a Christian setting. I will present the Word of God to them and let them read it with their own eyes. I will also provide some guidance in helping them with their relationship with the Lord.

God gives us a little responsibility. When He is assured that we can take care of what He has given us, He will give of more to take care of.

Fasting

Lord, I will fast my gluttonous ways and eat appropriately. I will eat proper portions and not eat by the desires of my heart.

Amen

I am a work in progress

I used to accept that I am who I am and I will never change. Due to the fact that I have tried and tried and tried to be a better person in many ways. I accepted my limits and capabilities for what they were to keep myself from feeling down from failure.

The key words are "USED TO".

Granted, if I didn't look to God's word everyday, I wouldn't have heard Him say that Philippians 1:6 says, "He who began a good work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ."

So instead of telling people that I am who I am and I have accepted it, I can now say that "I am a work in progress according to God's ways".

What a resource we have, lets not waste it!

What a waste of good resources that God has given us. Do we even use the resource that we all read? 

Lets apply what God has written, more to our daily life- in EVERY aspect. Lets starve out what the enemy puts in our minds, starve it. Let God fill that void with what ever He thinks we need, He will fill our cup and it will over flow if we let Him have His way in us.

We need to make a list and put on our wall to remind us how we are to live. Or, make a mobile of scriptures. A good foundation that we can rely on. Let be empowered to live God's way, not ours.

I go to church, not for myself, but for God. I do it for God. I present myself before Him, for Him. He wants all of our undivided attention. Lets stand before God to let Him have His way in us. To mold us.

BEAR GOOD FRUIT!

I have made my own words in all of my arguments with various people. ITS TIME TO CHANGE THAT! 

When ever we do things our own way, things usually don't turn out the way that we wanted it to. Arguments tend to get heated after a while after each person thinks that they are correct. And when they get heated, anything is bound to come out of my mouth, as is anyone else. As I look back to my last argument, things did not turn out the way it should have. Feelings got hurt, both sides were not receptive of the other- trying to get their point across. 

I have done it my way, now it is time to try something different. In Proverbs 12:13-22, tells us two defining ways of speech. One of deceit and destruction, and one... God's way. 

According to they way that God wants us to do it, I can definitely see that there could have been a different outcome. One thing that stuck out was- ¹⁵ The way of a fool is right in his own eyes, But he who heeds counsel is wise. "Heeds counsel". Means to heed to the Holy Spirit, whom God uses to communicate to our Spirit. The Holy Spirit will "check" us and point us to God, that He would remind us to act according to His ways.

 IN ALL SITUATIONS, NO MATTER WHAT, IF WE ARE TO BECOME MORE LIKE JESUS- JESUS TEACH THE RIGHT WAY OF LIVING- NOT DESTRUCTION, IF OUR DAILY READING OF OUR DEVOTIONAL IS NOT JUST A READING- BUT THAT WE CAN APPLY WHAT WE READ TO OUR DAILY LIFE. I PICK UP MY BIBLE, THIS IS HOW WE ARE TO LIVE!!! IT TELLS US HOW TO!!! IN EVERY SITUATION!!! QUIT LIVING ACCORDING TO OUR OWN AMBITIONS!!! LIVE THE WAY GOD WANTS US TO!!! IT WILL BE LESS PAINFUL!!!

Sorry, I am just so sick of listening to the enemy on how to live, how to react, living in the ENEMY'S pride. Living according to God's way is NOT PAINFUL. God's word in the bible are not meant to cause pain!

We have all made mistakes, we cannot change the past. I want to put the past aside, I do not want to live in the past anymore. I want to build my relationships. I look forward to my next argument, or shall I say discussion- to do it with the genuine love that God has granted me. I want to flourish and bear good fruit. BEAR GOOD FRUIT!

Surrender my pride to the cross

One problem that I have is living on earth and living in the sight of God. I am at the point that life of the earth continues to expose problems. In that, what I mean is that God is showing me my reactions on how I deal with situations. I continue discerning my actions, that I can identify and God will tell me how to correct them. Therefore walk in His righteousness, which is having patience, correcting the opposition with gentleness, applying what I have learned in my daily devotional. 

I have had a tendency to react with a defensive pride, to cause destruction and strife. It is said that what ever is in the heart will come out of the mouth, and God is revealing to me what is in my heart. But, being handcuffed by His teachings, He is guiding me in His righteousness. 

What a relief it is to look to God in my problems that I have living on this earth. The next thing that I gotta do is make right all that I have made wrong. To admit my wrong-doing to those I have trespassed. There is other scripture that I can meditate on, that I can apply to my daily life, so I can respond according to the way that God wants us to.

I need a dependancy!

I feel the urge for a dependancy to kill the pain that I endure.

If I was a drug addict, I can see myself shooting up or whatever. And I am so thankful that I am not in that state. I did drink and smoke cigars, but I have been delivered and forgiven from it. I was going to cave and have a beer at dinner, but I was going to do it out of ulterior  reasons. 

I got to the restaurant of choice, but I wasn't even remotely interested in drinking. I had a soda. I started thinking of this urge and pain inside, to define what it meant to me. It stared me in the face and determined that I NEED a dependancy. Then I thought about my past trials and how the Lord wants us to depend on Him (funny how depend and dependancy mean the same thing).

At that time, I made a choice of my dependancy that I need to numb the pain....

...qualities of increasing measure...

2 Peter 201:5-8

Pretty important and helpful scripture on how to become more like Him. Needs more meditation...

Shipwrecked

2 Corintians 5:9-10

Despite the failing of my trials and attempts to leave my Lord because of them, todays scripture is helpful and supportive of why I love the Lord. I go through trials by God and sometimes fail and get angry @ Him and I tell myself that I am better off w/out Him. That is the enemy at hand, telling me what he wants- separation from my Lord.

My trials are exactly like a storm. They come with courageous turbulence like that of the ocean. I have not been able to weather God's storm and give up on Him. I can say that I have gone through many trials, and I am tired of them. God is REALLY trying to tone me up for something. I believe that He is preparing me for a promotion in His ranks.

After the storm has been succumbed by God's grace, I realize what direction I was headed to and redirected myself to Him. I will continue to be tried, to be conditioned to sustain the enemy's onslaught until I pass this test by God.

How far can I trust Him

Question: If I trust God to be my provider, how do I know where He wants me to go to work. 

He is in control. I depend on Him to basically live my life. I don't want to go on my own plan or choices.

Being an insurance salesman is/can be risky. It is unsecured income. Can it be secured by God in this time of recession? I believe that if I go, that my work would be blessed- I think. 

I think that I depend on Him too much. I expect Him to show me where to go, to provide my footsteps for this day. 

God, please tell me what to do, please.

The Lead Dog

...The words that I speak to you I do not speak on My own authority; but the Father who dwells in Me does the works.    John 14:10

Lord Jesus did not speak for Himself as I may have thought. He did not EVEN speak on His OWN authority! We are here for the father to do the works, not us.

If we are to become more like Jesus, then the scripture applies to us as well. God will put words in our mouth, if we know how to listen. Confronting people to spread to word is special, for it is not us speaking to someone, but our father. That means that we have to surrender ourselves completely! God is preparing our footsteps, so be prepared to be a vessel for Him, let yourself be available to Him to minister to other people. We cannot do anything on our own- it took me a long time to realize that all the stuff I wanted to do for God that it was my own ambition. I am like a dog on a dog team... I wanna get out there and witness, jumping up and down, tugging at the reigns. But I can do nothing until the musher says its time to go. And if I am to be a good lead dog, then the musher will tell me where to go, when to stop.

I too have been in a situation that I thought was wrong, I didn't want to participate in the activity. I didn't know how to explain why. But words came to me and I surrendered my thoughts, listened, and relayed the words- of which provided a perfect explanation of what I believed in- living in Christ without sin.

Held in captivity

Paul was held in captivity, put in jail for his faith in Jesus.

I sometimes imagine what it would be like if I were in his place, but maybe I am and don't even realize it.

Sometimes I feel like I am being held in captivity- having no feeling of being free in my mind as I go though trials. Being captive in my trials by the enemy. Being captive by those who trespass me- human emotional feeling like I have been cheated and can't let go of it.

I am held in captivity until I am set free from it, set free from it by the glory of God. How important is it to depend on Him?