If I was a drug addict, I can see myself shooting up or whatever. And I am so thankful that I am not in that state. I did drink and smoke cigars, but I have been delivered and forgiven from it. I was going to cave and have a beer at dinner, but I was going to do it out of ulterior reasons.
I got to the restaurant of choice, but I wasn't even remotely interested in drinking. I had a soda. I started thinking of this urge and pain inside, to define what it meant to me. It stared me in the face and determined that I NEED a dependancy. Then I thought about my past trials and how the Lord wants us to depend on Him (funny how depend and dependancy mean the same thing).
At that time, I made a choice of my dependancy that I need to numb the pain....
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