Held in captivity

Paul was held in captivity, put in jail for his faith in Jesus.

I sometimes imagine what it would be like if I were in his place, but maybe I am and don't even realize it.

Sometimes I feel like I am being held in captivity- having no feeling of being free in my mind as I go though trials. Being captive in my trials by the enemy. Being captive by those who trespass me- human emotional feeling like I have been cheated and can't let go of it.

I am held in captivity until I am set free from it, set free from it by the glory of God. How important is it to depend on Him?