Artificial Pain, Prince of the Earth

I feel a heavy burden in me. What am I to do. I have looked to the Lord for His help. I surrendered it. But, it is still there. 

But, I will wait for the Lord to deliver me. Does that mean that I still go through this trial? Do I continue to go through this valley? Because I still feel this burden.

Lord, I know that you will reveal me my answer. So, I will continue to wait for You as I go through this valley.

I only say this because God lifted my burden a while ago, but I have gained a new one. But what does this burden effect? Can I simply 'know' that I have a burden, but would my Lord carry the FULL load for me? Can I, if the Lord allows, to let my feelings not be a cornerstone in me. To let me feelings be beside me and not in me. 

I surrender ALL my thoughts. God will direct my thoughts through the Holy Spirit. He will put words in my mouth at that time. Can I simply be a vessel for Him? To be used by Him? Jesus did. Jesus did the work of God, not under His own authority. But Jesus was born just like us. He did feel pain. Anger. But He used it to benefit the glory of God. He suffered, the same as we do, but even more. Imagine when He went through the valley for 40 days and 40 nights. He SUFFERED on His own and without sin. How did He do it? Who did He rely on? What did He do with His pain?

So, my question is, is it possible to harness the pain- to the effect that it does not succumb us. We need to understand the pain, I think. What do we do with that pain so it does not effect us. I imagined that when a boat gets caught in a storm, that it can do nothing but preserve itself and wait it out. So I am waiting out my pain and suffering, relying on the Lord to carry much of the burden, knowing that this will pass and to know that life does not suck.

Does anybody smell VICTORY? The enemy is set to destroy our relationship with the Lord. Trying to divert our hearts to disgust. If I make it through, I WILL KNOW THAT I CAN RELY ON THE LORD AND THAT THIS PAIN IS JUST ARTIFICIAL! That it is just temporary and it will pass. Can I look the enemy in the eye knowing that, I too, can conquer the Prince of the earth.

We are not of this world and are here only for a short time. 

-Go your ways: behold, I send you forth as lambs among wolves.

^-7To keep me from becoming conceited because of these surpassingly great revelations, there was given me a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me.

-Also I was delivered out of the mouth of the lion. ¹⁸ And the Lord will deliver me from every evil work and preserve me for His heavenly kingdom. To Him be glory forever and ever. Amen!